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...Have I mentioned these sorts of things get to me a little? - Diary of a Necromancer
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...Have I mentioned these sorts of things get to me a little?
And in the "somebody here needs to get a fucking grip and it may not even be me" department, I'm still having intermittent attacks of the shakes as I try to come down from having caught a glancing blow in the Twitter onMouseOver chaos this time yesterday. (Srsly, I'd been about to sign off for the "night", and then remembered that one more thing...) I keep hamsterwheeling on the thought of a serious breach taking out the identity I've constructed for myself online over the years, and while none of it's "important" in the senses that we usually measure such things -- very little of my life is time-sensitive or involves money, or is of any interest to anybody, really -- it's the part where I don't have enough of a life off-line to act as a counterweight that gives me the chills. I'm getting better about writing phone numbers down somewhere after the last Horrific Interruption Of Service, but I still don't feel like I have enough of a support network in place in case of a genuine emergency, like, say, LJ caught fire tomorrow and never came back, or something. And I worry that I'm far from the only one who'd be walking around like a stroke victim without my prosthetic social-life...

I'm not sure where I was going with this, besides that I need someone to drag me to lunch and give me a hug... It may just be fall. I always get like this in the fall. I mean, moreso than the baseline.

(I think, BTW, that many of my social anxiety issues go back to a childhood of "one strike and you're out" treatment from the adults around me; I'd be willing to bet that my tendency to catastrophize comes from never being given the opportunity to learn that mistakes can be recovered from. I really need somebody to hook me up with some cheap therapy, man...)

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valdary From: valdary Date: September 22nd, 2010 12:24 pm (UTC) (permalink this entry)

Can't take you to lunch on account of a little puddle called the Atlantic Ocean.
robling_t From: robling_t Date: September 22nd, 2010 12:53 pm (UTC) (permalink this entry)
And I have more local friends than usual for me, at that... just not any good at managing the FTF interactions part of hanging out with 'em... {sigh}
51stcenturyfox From: 51stcenturyfox Date: September 22nd, 2010 04:01 pm (UTC) (permalink this entry)
It would totally suck being unplugged. I mean, when I'm not here or on FB I'm checking my gmail on my phone.

So we're sad sacks together.
robling_t From: robling_t Date: September 23rd, 2010 09:00 am (UTC) (permalink this entry)
I'm enough of a wreck with the internet, man... But I worry a lot lately that we're on the verge of committing ourselves completely as a society to a way of doing business that, while a vast improvement over other ways we've done things in the past, runs a risk of being taken down by one bored teenager in Sweden; my Mum, for example, is only online second-hand through me, and she's already running into more and more situations where enough of the functionality of what she's needing to do has migrated on-line that it would be a real issue if I weren't around to help her out... and when the day comes that we've completely done away with the redundant backup methods of handling our lives, what do we do if the next TwitWorm cuts us off from, say, online banking and there are no more human tellers? {sigh} No answers, only half-full glasses of DSL...
green_knight From: green_knight Date: September 22nd, 2010 09:02 pm (UTC) (permalink this entry)
Since I've started using Dreamwidth, much of my anxiety around LJ has vanished - it's not the same (in my opinion, DW is more awesome) but it's close enought that if LJ went away tomorrow I'd miss a lot of people, but I'd also _have_ access to a lot of them, and to the platform/way of meeting more awesome folks.

I admit at being slightly panicky at the thought of Twitter becoming unusable....
robling_t From: robling_t Date: September 23rd, 2010 09:09 am (UTC) (permalink this entry)
Once I get around to tagging my entries here from wherever I left off going back and doing it (January 2007, I think -- I had the LJ before tags came in, it's a lot to plow through) I'm going to finally go ahead and import over to the DW I set up ages ago for just that eventuality; the real problem, though, would be if there were some higher-level catastrophe like the internet itself becoming the issue in some way, say if the TwitWorm had been an order of magnitude or two more malicious. I picture the chaos that would ensue if the trust we place in being able to browse around relatively unbothered really ruptured, and I curl up in a corner and rock every time a comm I'm in gets hit with a pornspam wondering what payload it might be hiding...
green_knight From: green_knight Date: September 23rd, 2010 09:49 am (UTC) (permalink this entry)
I think the Internet is here to stay - we should not take it for granted, and I feel we need to fight against privacy invasion and monetizing schemes (LJ, I am definitely looking at you!) because I'm investing my time and money so people can advertise at me.

For things like the TwitWorm we'll get better safety measures, so it'll even itself out. (I can no longer read Twitter on my desktop, as Twitter's new API does not support 10.4 clients, so I read it on my phone where it did not display).

In some ways I suppose we *will* need to have restrictions in place - there are too many people, particularly too many malicious people and too many ruthless people trying to do different things with the same medium, and we need to ensure that those spaces remain safe spaces. (I've learnt a thing or two from the demise of rasfc).
catbirdgirl From: catbirdgirl Date: September 23rd, 2010 01:07 am (UTC) (permalink this entry)
go to sahmsa.gov and do a search for sliding scale therapy in your area.
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